Suicide?

Suicide           

                  SAd special

I would have committed suicide only if I know,
She would come to my funeral,
With her heart filled with grief
Praising my life
Regretting my death
Memorizing the time she had with me
And trying to forget the catastrophes

Feeling shame on her acts

If not shame then at least should be pity
Pity but not oppressed

Praying to go back in time
The fights when she considers them
Tears should flow from her majestic eyes
 While remembering the day she left me
Something No! No! nothing
Oh! What I am thinking?
Fearing from the eyes of the peopleBut still trying to be braveBrave? she never ever was!Staying as close as she can from my bodyBody without my soul, my desireI know it ain't gonna happen

But hoping, at least hoping
But nothing she could do then

And I would have now, then

Hiding from the eyes of the people
Hiding the passion, the desire
the love, the affection 
The feelings she had for me 

But She couldn't hide the tears

Yelling, weeping and crying just for me

But I would be no more in this world then
 Still I could have, I would have
I would have committed suicide
For the love that never was mine...